I'm new and a little computer user un-friendly, please bear with me. thanks. Here's what I wrote in my journal:
First, I'm so happy I found this site. I don't know if I have an ED, but I am overweight, I am definitely an emotional eater and I may have a sugar addition (still not sure). I came across (accidentally) the other "pro ana" community and felt so compelled to help these girls and guys. I don't know if my experience will help anyone but I feel I must try. I am a recovering addict - 3 1/2 years sober. I am interested in the "addiction aspect of ana/mia" - being addicted to loosing weight. Being an addict, I can totally related to the hiding and wanting to protect your disease, the guilt, that no one else "understands", feeling judged, the controlling behaviors (counting calories, planning menus, etc.), the suicidal thoughts and behaviors, the self-hatred, the hopelessness and the despair. For me to recover, I had to surrender to a form of recovery and get a higher power. I'm very happy now. My life is manageable, for the most part, and I have people surrounding me that really care and love me. My family trusts me completely again, which has been one of the biggest rewards. I hope I can help. Thanks and God Bless.